Something I have to forgive myself for....
Failed Marriage: I need to forgive myself for getting married, when I knew I probably shouldn't have. That I did what I thought I wanted to do at the time.
I need to forgive myself for hurting Cory, his family and friends. That I left because I did not want to be in a loveless marriage (on my part) any more.
The biggest one is I need to forgive myself for lying to myself. Pretending I was happy when really I was fighting an internal struggle with myself everyday in pretending everything was ok. Everything was not ok.
I started treating Cory like crap. Knowing he deserves better. I would instigate argument for no other reason except hoping he’d get mad enough to leave ME. Hoping he’d dump ME.
So when I say SORRY to all those who are hurting because of a failed marriage, I truly mean it L It is not something I am proud of. I promise to be truly happy, no lies, or games any more. So on to the road of recovering from something I need to forgive myself for and that is a failed marriage, not wanting to try anymore, to giving up.
I owe it to myself to be happy.
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